Too much

I'm exhausted mentally and physically right now. I've been pretty much going non stop since fri morning and its catching up with me. School til 3 fri then work for 17 his straight then homework sat afternoon and trending to my beat up cat's wounds and bathing him then another 17 hour work shift. Then sun afternoon home for more homework and running to my mom's house to print my report and while I'm there my ex shows up with the girl her cheated on me with. Whatever I am glad its not my problem anymore. So I leave there and back to work for 17 more hours. Leave here and go straight to school in the morning and hopefully I can spend 2moro evening as a vegetable before it all starts again. I dont regret doing all this stuff but i do appreciate being home afterwards. I do miss seeing my boyfriend as much as i used to but absence makes the heart grow fonder. I cant believe how lucky i am to have him! I am not the easiest person to be in a relationship with i know but he hasnt run away screaming yet which is a good sign i hope. Well its bedtime

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2011 Resolutions and Goals

I decided to post a list of things i want to accomplish this year so I can keep track of what I need to do and what I have done.  Most likely I will be coming back to this post to update and add new goals throughout the year.

1.  Eat Healthier
2.  Exercise
3.  Study better for school
4.  Become more organized
5.  Spend smarter
6.  Broaden music library
7.  Learn to cook
8.  Broaden artistic side
9.  Learn skills for doll making
10. Start reading for pleasure
11. Learn to sew
12. Spend more time with family
13. Go to more concerts/Live music
14. Spend more time with my nephew
15. Ride my bike and roller skate
16. Find a new JOB

so much to say

Today I got up and went for my walk with my friend as scheduled. My exercise routine isnt very extreme but it is a start and the real point is to set up a routine I can stick to, which i have.  Because I am keeping such a busy schedule over the next 5 months or so, pretty much everything has to be well planned out for me to stick to it. I need to still figure out when is a good time to have a dedicated homework break but so far I am just trying to do it as soon as its assigned. I think 2 hour blocks twice a week should do nicely but with the crazy hours at work and varying days off its hard to make a solid plan. I also think at least 2 hours of dedicated house cleaning is needed too. I can always add to the time slots if i need more but shouldnt lessen it any since i know i will need that much time if not more.  So as far as starting school off right and getting a diet and exercise plan started I hit the ground running and am sticking to it pretty well.  Speaking of the diet,  it is not as hard as I thought. The first few days took a bit more willpower and I felt a bit hungry because it was different but now I am actually feeling pretty good. I have to plan ahead and make sure I have snacks with me if I am not going to be home for several hours but it makes me think about what i am going to eat so I pack good stuff. I'm also getting used to eating breakfast every day and wake up hungry so its easy to start with a good breakfast. What I am doing is having 3 small meals a day and 2 to 3 healthy snacks. Usually after a few hours i start getting hungry again but thats what i want. I only eat what my body can burn in a short time then i eat more. Its a great so far since i stress eat and eat when i watch tv as well. Anyhooo

  There is so much i want to and need to accomplish this year,  i think i am going to make a separate post just listing it all out so its easy for me to look back on. well, this is all for me anyway since its not really intended for anyone else to read. Besides that, I am feeling a little better from my last post.  My phone actually cut it short accidentally but wasnt much really to say other than what was there. Some days i feel really depressed and alone. I realize i have good friends and an awesome boyfriend but some days i just cant get with it.  

Cry

Some nights i just wanna cry myself to sleep. I feel so lost and alone all the time even tho i know im doing ok. What i really want is just to figure out how to fix how i feel but idont know what to do.

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Late night rant

Well it is way past bedtime so I am going to try to keep this short. This weekend has been crazy but good. I got my homework done (barely but its done) and I cooked a turkey for the first time.  Turned out so good, i'm kinda proud. I made a couple of resolutions for new years for the first time this year and learning to cook was one of them so my turkey was a start. Another was to get in better shape, diet and exercise and that has been going pretty good as well even tho i only started a week ago. 2moro will keep me busy too,  between school and work I will only have about 2 hours to do whatever errands i can do.  Top of my list for non school and non work obligations is to clean my room which looks like a bomb literally went off. I need some organization desperately in here but just havent been able to focus on doing it. I'll get there,  one step at a time. I really hope that all this effort pays off because i  so need it to. I have been so easily depressed lately and I know I am the only person that can get me out of it. Ok im done for now

So far so good

Today was my 2nd without and 3rd day of diet and do far I have survived! Right now I'm exhausted and not sure exactly why but that's ok. I walked about 3 miles and have had mostly fruit today, some yogurt. Gotta run to a dr appt now and then lunch and homework. School if going to be tough this semester. My english class is really going to hurt me with the excessive amounts of essays the professor has assigned but what doesn't kill me supposedly makes me stronger. I'm sure the next few months will put that theory to the test! More later...

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Newbie

Its Tues night and Im about to head to bed since 2moro is my 1st day of the new semester at school. I'll make this post short. This blog is really just an anonymous place for me to jot down ideas and ramble on about my hopes and dreams, my ideas,  maybe some venting about life in general... we'll see where it goes.

Today I start a new life; I'm beginning to workout and eat better, reading and expanding my mind, exploring my interests, finding a career and working towards getting into it, generally I am trying to better myself in every way and keeping this blog to track my progress. I know that major change takes time and effort so I dont expect major progress overnight but I hope this blog will help me get some organization in my life.

Well,  bedtime.  2moro I finally start one class that i have been putting off for many years and another that might help me turn a fairly new hobby into a paying job. We'll see how it all goes =)
Good night!